The last few months have felt like a roller coaster ride for
me and my family. I could bore you with the details, but that is not what
is important here. The importance is the lessons learned, the
reconciliation, the journey home.
All throughout the word the Lord speaks of idol
worship. I believe in many ways the worst idol that we succumb to is our
own selves. Greed, envy, pride, are jealously
are just a few of core character flaws that reflect this sense of entitlement
in ourselves, many times resulting in bitterness. This bitterness can be toward those around
us, our family, friends, and YES even our Father in heaven. Why does bitterness become the byproduct? Because we want to be in control.
God has patiently shown me over these last few months how
much I have wanted to be in control.
Gently he has nudged at me and shown me that if I truly want to walk
with Him, I have to let go...I can’t be
the one in control. But transfer of
control is not always easy, and so I believe sometimes God slowly turns the
volume up until we can’t hear ourselves anymore and the only voice resonating
within our ears is His own. The funny
thing is, when we finally truly here it, it is the song we want to hear.
I was driving in to work yesterday, asking God for reconciliation
in our relationship. Giving myself to
Him, asking Him to take full control, wondering how long this journey in the
desert would be. This is what God gave
me:
This was the first song I heard and He told me I was Strong
Enough.
The was the second song and He told me to Get Back Up Again
Then He brought it altogether with Psalm 121. He showed me where my focus needs to be, that He is always watching over
me, that He never sleeps, and I just have to realize HE is in control.
Isn't it freeing to be "Out of control" when it comes to yourself, because you know that He is fully in control. Try being out of control this week!
Our prayer:
Lord I submit to you all that I am. Father, take complete and total control of my life. Forgive me for my selfishness, greed, envy, pride, malice, jealousy, and bitterness. Wash these flaws from me and show me how to let go and give myself totally over to you. I thank you for your grace through the blood of Christ, that washes even these sins away. It is in the precious and Holy name of your son Jesus, that I pray. Amen!!!
